What's the point in waking up?

Question

I am a 23 year old male. I live with my parents. I was laid off in march and have no job. I have no girlfriend. I cannot afford to go to college because I am a white middle class male and therefore am not eligible for any grants or government loans. I have no health insurance. I haven't left my house in 2 months because I have no where to go and no money to spend.

I was diagnosed with a right sided ear disease when I was 15. It causes severe, violent, random attacks of vertigo and hearing loss. I had brain surgery in 2008 to fix it, they severed my right balance nerve so I wouldn't be affected by the vertigo. The disease has now entered my left ear, causing once again: severe, violent, random attacks of vertigo. There is nothing they can do now because they have already severed my right balance nerve, and you must have at least 1 to even hold your head up. I am deaf in my right ear and have less than 60% hearing in my left ear. I will be deaf within the next 5 years.

I was denied for disability and unemployment. I have wanted to be a military pilot my entire life. In 2007, I got my private pilots license. I just lost my medical certificate due to my ear disease so now I can never fly again. I lost my drivers license because of the random attacks of vertigo and had to sell my motorcycle. I was denied entrance into every branch of the military and the 39 credits of college I managed to scrape up money for are useless because they are towards a degree in Professional Aeronautics.

so now I sit at my house... unable to work... and unable to go anywhere...

seriously... what is the point of waking up tomorrow.... and don't say have faith or everything happens for a reason or some b.s. like that

where is there a light at the end of this tunnel....

and no.... talking with someone is not going to change the fact that I have had every goal in my life... taken from me

Answer 1

I'm in a similar situation, i.e. disabled, can't work, live with pain, very limited activities, etc. I have been struggling with this for years and there are ups and downs. It is the possibility of another "up" that helps me wake up. Not having much family doesn't help. I'm 50 today and the only birthday wishes were from social networking and online forums I participate in. I only have one sibling who isn't in this country but a card would've been nice. That's one of the tough things people don't understand is that it is easy to feel like a "throw away". Society finds it easier to ignore us than embrace us.



I have been fortunate enough to live where the state vocational rehabilitation is the best in the US. They have helped me with re-training and obtaining jobs. Trouble is that my disability is progressive so I eventually become unable to continue and have to try something else.



There are some days that the only reason to wake up is to let the dogs out. I was doing some volunteer work with some kids but had to stop and that has really left a hole in my heart. HOWEVER, in my experience, something new has always come along. I have to be patient and open to possibilities. This is not easy and there are no easy answers.



Support groups are good IF they focus on solutions rather than problems and are not "Polly Anna"-ish. Transportation is a bear unless the bus is around or the area has a program to transport disabled people. Find a way to use your intelligence. I recently got my Amateur Radio license and there are some opportunities there to act as a relay station, especially in disasters. Maintaining websites for non-profits isn't bad.



Enough. I know you've probably heard or tried everything I've mentioned. One more thing, if you haven't appealed to SSA for disability at least 3 times WITH an attorney, then you better get on it.

Answer 2

You know...it's all about your outlook. You can make the most or the least of every situation you are placed in. You are extremely unlucky to come across these circumstances, but do know that I know individuals with more severe placements than you have at this moment.



You can stay in your situation, or you can work to regain that passion you once had. Your physical state prohibits you from following a life's dream, but you have many years ahead of you. I don't know what problems may ensue in the future, but the best mindset is seeing the crisis before you as an opportunity to rise above the adversity to find yourself against.



Find a new passion, study it in whatever way you can, through educational (recommended) or through experience. Use that passion to fuel your drive to succeed. My dad has had very severe bouts of vertigo, and I realize how much of a burden it places on you, but if you find the time to get to it...get to it.



If you are going to become deaf within the next 5 years, try to take classes or learn how to read lips. Other than that, try to seek counseling or treatment through a psychiatrist. You might not know it, but my uncle works with many individuals, and even though it might seem useless, it might help you very much in your life.





EDIT: Lol, what's with the thumbs downs? I'm ENCOURAGING the man to go on with his life. Silly people.

Answer 3

the point in waking up would be to find ways to live up to the potential that you obviously have because you're: "good loocking, intelligent, athletic, good career prospects, speak 2 languages" and who cares what other people think if you know you are good then who cares? the self doubt is what makes other people doubt you confidence is key

Answer 4

There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I promise.

The bad news is that light is a train waiting to run us all over.

Start learning sign language. I would think it will be much easier while you can still hear. And don't worry if you are mad at God. He can take it. Just hang in there. If things don't get better, at least you can be sure that things will change and you'll have a bunch of new crap to deal with, so that's something.

Answer 5

you want sympathy

look it up in the dictionary

you'll find it between syphilis and shi+



get off your butt and go for a walk

get a entry level job at a retail establishment



figure how to get into community college and take

one course at a time if that all you can afford

work for a degree in education, maybe you can't fly

but you can teach others.....



you need a new goal.......



go to the local mall and walk around until you see

10 people worse off than you, should take about a hour



put a helmet on, grows some balls, make a life for yourself.

Answer 6

I am really sorry that your life is so messed up, but **** that man, it just gives you excuses. If you feel you've hit rock bottom then the only place to go is up. Go and rob a bank or take out all of your savings and have one amazing day before you completely give up on life. Or you could always go out and buy all of the Sims 2's and just sit at home and play that because that game is addictive. But my advice is to go out and do something you always wanted to do, just for one day, and then go back home and give up.

Answer 7

So that you can tell your Daddy that you love him.